Well as of today is has been a month....
I really thought it would have been easier by now, sometimes I do feel like I am going to make it and then there are times all I want to do is cry. For those who don't know I am talking about my breakup with the guy I have dated since I was a sophomore in high school, almost 8 years. I guess it seems so silly to still bring it up, but I just can't shake the sad feelings. I have had some of the best support this past month and without them I don't know what I would have done. I have heard great advice and encouraging songs, but at the end of the day he is still all I want and think about.
I've often laid here night after night and just wonder if he will realize he's made a mistake and want to come back, even though he has told me time and time again there is no hope. I also wonder if this is just a phase because he doesn't even seem like the same person anymore. I have heard stories where this has happened to other girl's boyfriends and after they get it out of their system they come back to the one they really wanted to be with the whole time. I don't know what to think anymore.
I am a hopeless romantic. I love looking at wedding stuff and watching romantic movies but here lately I just haven't been in the mood and it seems like everyone is getting engaged or married. I guess it is wedding season. I guess one day this will all pass. I feel kinda childish talking about it all, but it's all thats on my mind so I just wanted to blog about it and see if anyone has any good advice or has been through this before please share your words of wisdom.
|I feel like I could have written this letter|